December 2011
11 posts
12/21/11
I’m letting go. I’m letting go of the fact that I get a C in one class. It’s not going to fuck me over…what’s meant to happen will happen. I have a good gpa. One class isn’t going to ruin my life…so why am I so hard on myself? My parents accept it. I’m going to have an amazing life, and one physics grade isn’t going to change it. I need to stop...
12/9/11
When people think their bad-ass and they think they’re going to go places in life when they don’t work hard for anything
and they complain all the damn time but then they promote not complaining
and when they say rude things that hurt other people but they think they’re just helping out but in reality, NOBODY asked for their opinion
and when they think they are better than...
12/8/11
I have problems. We all do. Nobody can say honestly that they are 100% happy. I don’t buy it. The problem is, we focus too much on the little things, and the things that we shouldn’t take for granted, are taken for granted every day.
12/7/11
Failed tests, study sessions, sober nights, wasted fights.
Crying girls, facebook pics, Open house, Closed future. Stupid mistakes, big decisions, Dumb people, good friends.
Douchebags, weed 4 sale, overdue books, long-lost souls.
12/6/11
It’s like this;
I want to protect you, but I want you to make your own decisions. I want to tell you no, but I also know it’s not my place to state my opinion. I want to tell you, but I’m too afraid of getting hurt.
12/5/11
Is this even going to matter at all in the future?
12/4/11
I wish someone told me how you are before I became close with you. Because at first, I liked you, now, I avoid you at all costs. You’re a little immature, you don’t care that what you say is offensive, and I think you’re a little sly under the “good person” persona. Your remarks are small, but they hurt big. And you know it.
12/3/11
Nobody gives a fuck about you until you’re gone.
Your life doesn’t mean a thing to anyone until you’re not there to live it anymore.
12/2/11
Nobody chooses their words carefully anymore and chivalry is dead.
So how can I hear all these sounds of love that you create in my head?
12/1/11
Is there far too much evil in the world to ever make it good?
Do we all have evil in us, or do we have evil thrust upon us?
If so, where did it start?
Are there too many problems to ever have a solution?
Too many people question kindness and expect evil from others.
Why isn’t it the other way around?
Are there any good people left in the world?
Or are we all going mad?
11/30/11
“You sit there in your heartache, waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways”
November 2011
29 posts
11/29/11
One of the saddest and most enligtening things to see are other people’s problems and realizng how small yours are.
11/28/11
“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.”
11/27/11
A year ago today was one of the best days of my life.
Where are you now?
11/26/11
I promise you that I’ll learn from my mistakes.
11/24/11
I’m thankful for my family and my friends. I’m thankful that I can wake up every morning in a warm house with food to eat and opportunities not many people have. I’m thankful for every person in my life who has ever made me smile.
11/25/11
Let me just go get high and tweet my darkest feelings and quote Wiz Khalifa lyrics
11/23/11
i’m nervous.
11/22/11
The saddest thing is to see someone you were close with once in your life and walk by them like you’re strangers.
11/21/11
Do people really change? Or do we just show more of ourselves?
11/20/11
Guess I’ve missed you from the day that we first met
11/19/11
Should I hold back for my parents or demand what I want?
11/18/11 - Risks
My dad has a shitty day job. He wants to open his own business. I’m rooting for him to do it. What’s life without a little risk? He hates his job right now. I don’t want him to be unhappy.
11/17/11
The best type of music is the kind that makes you feel happy and sad at the same time.
11/16/11
don’t leave me at this time; for I am afraid of what I will discover inside.
11/15/11
Wake me early, I’ve been dreaming. Dreaming that I’m only, only, good enough for me, and no one else.
11/14/11
Who am I without you?
11/13/11
I hate the feeling where you realize none of this will even matter.
11/12/11
Had an amazing day today. So blessed. I always have to remember how truly lucky I am.
11/11/11
Your sister posted pictures with one of her friends on facebook today. I only saw the small thumbnails on homepage. For a split-second, I thought her friend was you. Then I remembered, you’re not here anymore. I miss you.
11/10/11
What are you going to do when I’m gone?
11/9/11
Everything you say and do affect someone other than yourself. Choose your words wisely, make sure to think before you speak. Always. Because even if you think you’re not hurting someone else, you are.
11/8/11
I have to keep going.
11/6/11
I’ve wronged, I’ve right, just please accept it all. I can’t dance, I’m not good with my feelings, but please accept it. I’m flawed, but accept me.
11/5/11
Who’s the real you?
11/4/11
I’m scared of growing up.
11/3/11
I wish I was born during a time where you had to share your feelings face to face.
11/2/11
“You meet thousands of people, and none of them really touch you, and then you meet one person, and your life is changed forever.”
11/1/11
I follow the footprints to the door, the only sound I hear is my own heart beating.
Nobody’s ever home.
Yet I’ll always follow the footsteps, hoping.
10/31/11
Give me a good reason to stay. Paint me a picture with your words. Because I know you can use them well.
October 2011
13 posts
10/30/2011
People make me nervous.
10/29/2011
I don’t know anyone anymore.
10/28/11
I almost forgot to blog today, I guess nothing was worth writing about.
10/27/11
Telling the truth despite what the outcome is > trying to cover up everything with lies
10/26/11
Nobody gives a shit if you pop pills. Nobody is going to think you’re a badass if you get drunk every weekend. Nobody fucking cares.
10/25/11 - Blurs
The lines between love and compassion are starting to get blurry, & we both know how it goes when you push me away.
10/24/11 - Please don't go
Everyone leaves, everyone changes The seasons pass, the people you’d never imagined would disappear do just that. You grow old, you learn You fuck up, you get burned Stay with me, just for the night? Or maybe forever, or whatever’s in sight In sight for us, but the future is fuzzy Be the one who doesn’t disappoint me.
10/23/11 - Dreams
I walk the streets of a deserted town, they’re haunted with the faded dreams of the ones who walked before me. Can’t you tell I’m scared? Do you know me well enough to predict my moves before I speak? No, because you don’t hear me speak. You only know the thoughts that leave my brain and are typed on a keyboard. I can only wish for you to feel what courses through my...
10/22/11 - Choice
Choose which path.
Choose wisely.
Don’t conform to the ideas of small minded fools who can’t see through the barriers of this town.
Take your pick.